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Alive for Now.
Alive for Now.
In the quietest of
Still moments
In the perfect silence
Between one breath
And the next
I become aware
That I am alive
When I watch
The dawn break
Like a wave
Over the darkness
And shadows
I take a moment
To remember
That I am alive
Sometimes when
A stranger
Bumps into me
Or our eyes lock
And we both smile
We see each other
In the reflection
Of another
And we tell the other
Without any words
That we are both alive
I let myself feel hunger
I let myself enjoy the pain
I loose myself in love
And sometimes
I take things too far
I say what no one
Ever dares to say
I laugh out loud
And I learn from
My mistakes
Because I need to feel
Alive
I don’t know any other way
To feel
Alive
It all comes crashing in
At the strangest of times
Taking hold of every
Fiber that creates
A reality that seems
So very real
While shaking the core
Of the heart
And the soul
With a simple truth
That
I am alive
It sneaks in
Unsuspected
And unexpected
But there is no way
To deny
Or stop the progression
Once the journey
Has been started
There are more emotions
And feelings to be felt
Because
This is what it means
To live and to be
Alive
As much as it seems
Like this should be
A comfort
Or that this thought
Should bring security
It can be scary to face
The knowledge that
Our stories end the same
And all
We need to learn
Is how to finally live
Like we are
Really alive
2/6/2013 10:30 AM
See.
See.
Creeping sun invades
Staining the edges
Of darkness
Unhinged from time
In the silent void
Of space
Do you see?
What they want you
To see
Scars leftover
From the battles
Of life
Fallen from grace
Fearless in the face
Of death
Do you see?
What this journey has done
To me
Below the surface
Faceless faces scream
Of nothing
Do you see?
What you mean
To me
Eventually it comes down
To this moment
Of truth
Do you see?
This is a part
Of me
Blood stained fingers
Clutch to the edge
Of sanity
Do you see?
Those secret places inside
Of me
This has always been
A life or death game
Of chance
Do you see?
1/31/2013 5:27 AM
A New Coat of Paint
A New Coat of Paint.
Tomorrow night I am going to see the Mighty Mighty Bosstones and since I had no wing tips, and I don’t own a suit cool enough for the heat wave we are trapped in, I figured the next best thing was to dye my Mohawk Bosstone red. Unfortunately, I forgot how bright colors come out when you bleach your hair four or five times in a day.
A few weeks ago I started bleaching my hair and I was fairly happy with the results then, today, I had got in the mood to bleach it some more and get it a perfect whitish blonde. I failed, miserably. Thankfully I always have more hair care products than a girl like me could ever possibly need, as part of that collection, I always keep a few different colors of hair dye on hand encase I get bored. It saved me tonight, in a big way.
There are few things in life that make you feel better like a new coat of paint, sooner or later I will be able to afford some paint for my skin too, I need some more tattoos, all kinds of them, maybe some piercings too. But everything in its own time and for now, I am just happy with a new doo now and then.
I also wanted to take a chance to say happy freaking birthday to my fellow freak in all sorts of painting, Jo Lynn. They don’t come much cooler than her. Back when I started this page I wrote a little thing about her art and where you can find out more about her, you can read that here. So leave a comment and wish her a happy one or even better, go check out her art and buy some stuff.
Anyway, I was going to try to take on this whole homophobic chicken issue but I got a little too high and it was coming out a bit too judgmental and weird and then, I remembered, I don’t care, I mean, I do but… the whole thing was about how ignoring hate and not giving it attention is the best way to deal with it, so I erased it and wrote something with meaning and substance.
Why bother writing about stupidity and hate when I can write about how much I love my friends, my hair and the fact that I am going to see one of my favorite bands in a few hours with the person I love most in this world. I mean, right? Tell them how much you love being you, that shit pisses people off every time. Like they say, the best revenge is a life well lived and all those other things like onward and upward, live and let live, love is love…go out there and do it, paint something, even if you paint your whole life.
8/3/2012 3:55 AM