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Alive for Now.
Alive for Now.
In the quietest of
Still moments
In the perfect silence
Between one breath
And the next
I become aware
That I am alive
When I watch
The dawn break
Like a wave
Over the darkness
And shadows
I take a moment
To remember
That I am alive
Sometimes when
A stranger
Bumps into me
Or our eyes lock
And we both smile
We see each other
In the reflection
Of another
And we tell the other
Without any words
That we are both alive
I let myself feel hunger
I let myself enjoy the pain
I loose myself in love
And sometimes
I take things too far
I say what no one
Ever dares to say
I laugh out loud
And I learn from
My mistakes
Because I need to feel
Alive
I don’t know any other way
To feel
Alive
It all comes crashing in
At the strangest of times
Taking hold of every
Fiber that creates
A reality that seems
So very real
While shaking the core
Of the heart
And the soul
With a simple truth
That
I am alive
It sneaks in
Unsuspected
And unexpected
But there is no way
To deny
Or stop the progression
Once the journey
Has been started
There are more emotions
And feelings to be felt
Because
This is what it means
To live and to be
Alive
As much as it seems
Like this should be
A comfort
Or that this thought
Should bring security
It can be scary to face
The knowledge that
Our stories end the same
And all
We need to learn
Is how to finally live
Like we are
Really alive
2/6/2013 10:30 AM
See.
See.
Creeping sun invades
Staining the edges
Of darkness
Unhinged from time
In the silent void
Of space
Do you see?
What they want you
To see
Scars leftover
From the battles
Of life
Fallen from grace
Fearless in the face
Of death
Do you see?
What this journey has done
To me
Below the surface
Faceless faces scream
Of nothing
Do you see?
What you mean
To me
Eventually it comes down
To this moment
Of truth
Do you see?
This is a part
Of me
Blood stained fingers
Clutch to the edge
Of sanity
Do you see?
Those secret places inside
Of me
This has always been
A life or death game
Of chance
Do you see?
1/31/2013 5:27 AM
In That Place
Slipping back into that place
That far away world of my own
Quietly comforted by the feeling
Of depression
And the weight of the darkness
Too broken for tears
Mistakes have been made
But lessons were also learned
Within the comforting
Embrace of blind belief
Anything seems possible
Too scared to understand the truth
Or just to weak to search for it
Half of these lies are equal
To more than half of our lives
Fate lets the darkness chose
How and when someone survives
Exceptions to the rule
Can always be made
Because everyone wants to feel special
Everyone wants to be loved
Secret hopes born from violent nightmares
Knowledge is power
At least that’s what they say
In the darkness we are all the same
Jaded by time and experience
Learning to take things slow
Breathing in the faint whispers
Vapors left by souls lost in the shadows
There will never be another night like this
Some people say that time
Can heal all wounds
But those same people
Say it is better to have loved and lost
Than to have never loved at all
Everyone tries to live in the light
Believing the are owed something
Pretending life is supposed to be easy
And never once do they consider
Just trying to enjoy the darkness
For whatever it may be worth
Time keeps moving forward
Even in the most perfect of moments
And even when everything
Seems to stand still
Frozen in forever
Drowning in the emotions
Exhausted by the effort
Selfish cravings outweigh
Any logical response
When endings eventually become
New beginnings
Many lives can be lived
In the time it takes to blink
When it is all over
Darkness welcomes us again
Finding a home within
The darkness lets the future
Become the past
Hungering to be remembered
Longing to be immortal
Too stubborn to be resisted
And too honest to be ignored
On a road to nowhere
Stumbling through the dark
Just trying to find a way
A way to make it all work
Somehow there has to be a reason
There has to be a way
When all the rules have been broken
And the illusions have been destroyed
No one will be able to know
If they are alone when
Darkness can consume reality
Leaving nothing
To see here and
Nothing left to believe in
All that is left behind
Is the hope and the dreams
That have long been forgotten
Attracted to Distractions.
Attraction to Distraction.
Today
Tomorrow
Whenever
The day after
Who cares
Now
Or never
Someday
Somehow
Something else
And then
Again
Wait here
Hurry now
Don’t
Be late
Again
And after
Before
Meanwhile
Sometimes
Then again
Here or there
Now
Or then
Begin
Again
Endings
Begin again
After a while
Time flies
Quickly
Dragging by
Realizing
Reality can never
Be realized
Passions procrastinated
Desires dreamed
Whispered screams
Undone
By fate
Battling with destiny
Needing more time
Another dream
Try again
And again
Perfecting
Self-destruction
In the silence
Of another
Night
Screaming seconds
Pass slowly
Singular molecules
Asking
For more
Again
With time
Passing unnoticed
Defined
By ages
Destroyed
In stages
Learn from the
Past
Learn something
That might
Last
5/14/2012 10:16 PM
Sometimes.
Sometimes.
Sometimes it gets old
Sometimes it gets boring
And sometimes
Everything falls apart
Sometimes it’s great
Sometimes it takes too long
And sometimes
Everything goes by too fast
Sometimes it matters
Sometimes it’s easy to do
And sometimes
Everything works perfectly
Sometimes the answers are clear
Sometimes nothing makes sense
And sometimes
Everything takes a turn for the worst
Sometimes there are motives
Sometimes there are consequences
And sometimes
Everything just fades like memories
Sometimes are filled with love
Sometimes are filled with hate
And sometimes
Everything becomes confusing
Sometimes it feels right
Sometimes it feels wrong
And sometimes
Everything becomes hard to feel at all
Sometimes it becomes hard to handle
Sometimes it’s hard to deal
And sometimes
Everything slows back down again
Sometimes the future seems written
Sometimes it feels like there is free will
And sometimes
Everything means forever
And sometimes
This feels like it finally could be enough
Sometimes dreams come true
Sometimes things really do work out in the end
2/23/2012 4:13 AM